Friday, January 30, 2009

Of Course...

The word is now that we will probably not know until Tuesday whether or not we leave for Russia on Wednesday. Of course. Did I really expect anything else? No.

I read a comment from someone recently who likened this cancel-the-day-before procedure to asking someone to cancel their wedding the day before. This actually made me feel a little better, because I thought Hey, I can do that! I've been there, and done that. Cancelled an entire wedding with one day to go, as I sat helplessly by waiting for my husband-to-be to get back into the country after 9/11. It wasn't that bad, really. The hard part was just wanting him to be back home. And of course, that is the hard part this time as well. I know the cancellation fees and the headaches about flights, and arranging child care, and getting visas - that is all just busy work. I can do that part, I know I can. Not knowing if we will ever bring Owen home - much harder. Right now all I can say is, baby boy, it's you or no one. We will do everything we can to bring you home, but if for some reason we never can, I think we're done.

A big thank you to Grandma for her flexibility. You are most likely just coming for a visit next week, but that will be great too. You can enjoy the kids with no pressure of school, etc. We are looking forward to seeing you!

5 comments:

Natalie said...

Tracy,
I'm so sorry you have to wait until Tuesday to find out about your travel. I really hope you get to travel on Wednesday. Inessa did mention in her update that things were starting to get back to normal, so, hopefully no more trips will be cancelled.

Stephanie said...

Hi there.
Hang in there!
So fill me in - do you go over this one time for a visit and meet him and then go back for another trip to bring him home?
I hope you get good news soon, and safe travels for all!
Take care - Stephanie

ps - yes, we had a foot of snow at least. 2 days off school, 2 2 hour delays. June is going to be a long month in school if we get another storm or 2!

Tracy said...

Yes, the Trip 1 is a very brief in-and-out trip to and officially accept him. Then probably a wait of 3-4 months to finish paperwork and get a court date scheduled. Then Trip 2 is potentially much longer (like 3-4 weeks...) to bring him home. I'm so wishing we had been able to go in December for Trip 1...but I know I shouldn't dwell on the past.

Marina said...

Okay-I lit a candle for you guys at church- maybe just maybe you will get to fly out on wed. Keep your good attitude going:)

Amy said...

Tracy,
I do hope you hear good news this week that it's a go. I was in your shoes this past summer so I know what you are going through and how you are feeling. We did get there so hang in there. You'll be meeting that little guy soon. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Amy